There is also a desire to share my fascination with the alchemy of inks , pigments and solutions that I employ , a hope that by relinquishing a little control it will allow the media and materials own voice and particular characteristics to shine through , for they are truly immense and infinite in their own right . A painter whose work I love speaks of her paints being “ a much better painter than she is ” ,  and I enormously empathise with this . I all too often totally lose my rag with something I am working on and ‘ cast it down ’ to the floor only to find that gravity , force mass motion and my solution have conspired to produce a mark or series of marks far more interesting than those I was actually trying to bloody paint !